Motherhood Currently.
It has been a year since I've written in this space. And in that year I got to become a mom again! My baby boy, August, made his way into the world in early May and ignited a light I didn't know was out. He is the piece I didn't know was missing. He is the gift I didn't know I was praying for. And in all his glorious, adorable, delicious existence, he has also been my most "challenging" baby. All of my babies have had colic in some form but this boy had me questioning my primal mothering abilities. I had always prided myself on knowing my children on a spiritual level, void of words, just knowing exactly what they needed simply by being connected to them on a different level and having this insane confidence that I knew what I was doing. But in those early days with August, amongst the nonstop crying, no, SCREAMING, after all the diaper changes, the bouncing, the rocking, the 27th humming of Edelweiss...I sat on my bed with him and thought maybe I did...